I remember the feeling very well, if I could bottle it and sell it I would be a billionaire, that feeling you get at the start of your six week summer holidays when you are a child.
You don't get that same feeling the year you leave school because there is uncertainty and decisions to be made that you will possibly regret for the rest of your life.
I remember the pure joy, the knowing that early mornings will be reserved for fun days out, the realisation that your school uniform will hang in your wardrobe getting dusty, the fact you can choose whatever you want to wear, what time you will get up, and you have the wonder of a morning full of childrens tv.
Although now I suppose that isn't one of the points that lure children into the joy of summer holidays - my children have tv on tap from the moment they wake to the moment they sleep if required, and its even there on those occasions that they have emptied their stomach contents all over their bed, and need a distraction from the sicky feeling that still remains in the middle of the night.
I have never ever had that feeling since I was approx fourteen years old, and I miss it, and I know I shall probably never ever have that feeling again.
What I do hope is that the children will get that lovely feeling, my little boy is counting down to his first six week holiday from school, and for months has been wanting to know how much longer?! This morning he welcomed me warmly when he woke up, with a big kiss and a lovely hug that only he knows how to deliver - he announced to us that he was really looking forward to school today, and he wished he could go there right now (it was 7am) I asked him why, and he told me because he has so much fun there.
I am so glad he is enjoying school, but I do wish he had discovered it wasn't that bad 6 months ago, instead of waiting till the week before he breaks up for summer!
Wednesday, 14 July 2010
Monday, 12 July 2010
Cor Blimey!
Well should really attempt a blog as it has been a while I guess!
Things are a changing again, work (pants!) is changing, new systems, expectations of great things, reality probable redundancy - phew what an escape! Will be my chance to get off my fat arse and do something less boring instead! Admin sucks!
Me - I am changing, getting very slightly more laid back, have decided that as there is another baby on the way I may as well give up on the show house ideal, and relax in my family home with my quiet frankly delicious little family. Also bump is pushing through now, clothes are no longer fitting, and my legs have begun to swell to enormous widths during the day. I have always had podgy legs, but my goodness these are a sight to behold - elephants would be keen to see the wonder of these!
Add the insect bites (is there anything about the summer that should make me happy?!) and you have horrific looking legs - they really are horrid, and are happiest elevated and covered so as not to alarm the children and the dog.
I am desperately trying to widen my entertainment, too long have I sat and watched american comedies which I have seen several times before. Its all part of my anxiety and trying new things, I am such an idiot - I am scared of wasting time on rubbish tv! I would rather commit to an old favourite episode of Friends or Frasier than explore new territory! Goodness only knows what I will be like when I am old! Sat in front of an ancient DVD player while my Great Grandchildren shy away from the strange old lady that is sitting dribbling and watching odd tv.
I have so far started watching Police Interceptors - on recomendation by a friend, I very rarely venture onto something that is completely new to me! I have also attempted Psychoville which was repeated on UKGold or Dave or whatever its called these days - I watched the entire series over 2 nights, which is kind of old behaviour in that I crammed it in, but it was a new programme so kudos to me for that! lol
This was kind of an easing into the real world a bit - it was a repeat but not something I had seen before!
I even watched a movie last night - all the way through. Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince, I borrowed it from my parents about 6 months ago, and finally got courage up to watch it, and I am very glad I did. It was very good and very entertaining, and reminded me how much I adore Alan Rickman.
Ahhh Alan Rickman, probably top 5, nay top 3, possibly even number 1 of greatest actors of all time.
Right I am off to do some ankle rotations on order of the midwife and possibly even a relaxing bath.
Things are a changing again, work (pants!) is changing, new systems, expectations of great things, reality probable redundancy - phew what an escape! Will be my chance to get off my fat arse and do something less boring instead! Admin sucks!
Me - I am changing, getting very slightly more laid back, have decided that as there is another baby on the way I may as well give up on the show house ideal, and relax in my family home with my quiet frankly delicious little family. Also bump is pushing through now, clothes are no longer fitting, and my legs have begun to swell to enormous widths during the day. I have always had podgy legs, but my goodness these are a sight to behold - elephants would be keen to see the wonder of these!
Add the insect bites (is there anything about the summer that should make me happy?!) and you have horrific looking legs - they really are horrid, and are happiest elevated and covered so as not to alarm the children and the dog.
I am desperately trying to widen my entertainment, too long have I sat and watched american comedies which I have seen several times before. Its all part of my anxiety and trying new things, I am such an idiot - I am scared of wasting time on rubbish tv! I would rather commit to an old favourite episode of Friends or Frasier than explore new territory! Goodness only knows what I will be like when I am old! Sat in front of an ancient DVD player while my Great Grandchildren shy away from the strange old lady that is sitting dribbling and watching odd tv.
I have so far started watching Police Interceptors - on recomendation by a friend, I very rarely venture onto something that is completely new to me! I have also attempted Psychoville which was repeated on UKGold or Dave or whatever its called these days - I watched the entire series over 2 nights, which is kind of old behaviour in that I crammed it in, but it was a new programme so kudos to me for that! lol
This was kind of an easing into the real world a bit - it was a repeat but not something I had seen before!
I even watched a movie last night - all the way through. Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince, I borrowed it from my parents about 6 months ago, and finally got courage up to watch it, and I am very glad I did. It was very good and very entertaining, and reminded me how much I adore Alan Rickman.
Ahhh Alan Rickman, probably top 5, nay top 3, possibly even number 1 of greatest actors of all time.
Right I am off to do some ankle rotations on order of the midwife and possibly even a relaxing bath.
Sunday, 9 May 2010
Well that is one approach.....
I finally have a way out of work - well for a short time anyway. I am newly pregnant with my third baby!
It came as quite a surprise to me and the other half. But now the initial life changing shock has worn off, we are both excited about our new addition.
The children are quite excited, my son is excited and would like a boy as then he would get to share his bedroom, my daughter is excited and also would like a boy, as she has lots and lots of girl cousins, and I think she quite likes being the 'only girl' in our unit.
To be honest it was something I thought may happen sometime in the future, another baby - but as it happens its now, and I am really quite excited to meet the new little personality.
Morning sickness is not really something I am suffering with this time, the odd day I get 'the gags' and some evenings, but no real sickness.
I've just spent the best part of the morning having a lay-in to help with the tiredness that accompanies pregnancy. I then got up and made the masses pancakes for breakfast - well it is Sunday!
Its actually May now, but still wet and grey on the whole. Not something that bothers me too much - I'm not all that outdoorsy, so it really isn't a big deal to spend the day inside!
I suppose I can't write a blog at this particular moment in history without a mention of the hung parliament. I didn't vote Tory, and if there is any agreement between Tory and Lib Dem, it will be short lived and will mean in 12 months when it all goes terribly wrong that Labour will get in again. So maybe that is a good thing.....of course if the Lib Dems go with the Tories - we may be saying a firm goodbye to Nick Clegg, and without a doubt they will go on to dissappear into obscurity - I am fairly certain that most Lib Dems fall on the side of Labour rather than Tory.....
That is my view anyway.
Right I am off to do pregnant things like rest and look at baby things......
It came as quite a surprise to me and the other half. But now the initial life changing shock has worn off, we are both excited about our new addition.
The children are quite excited, my son is excited and would like a boy as then he would get to share his bedroom, my daughter is excited and also would like a boy, as she has lots and lots of girl cousins, and I think she quite likes being the 'only girl' in our unit.
To be honest it was something I thought may happen sometime in the future, another baby - but as it happens its now, and I am really quite excited to meet the new little personality.
Morning sickness is not really something I am suffering with this time, the odd day I get 'the gags' and some evenings, but no real sickness.
I've just spent the best part of the morning having a lay-in to help with the tiredness that accompanies pregnancy. I then got up and made the masses pancakes for breakfast - well it is Sunday!
Its actually May now, but still wet and grey on the whole. Not something that bothers me too much - I'm not all that outdoorsy, so it really isn't a big deal to spend the day inside!
I suppose I can't write a blog at this particular moment in history without a mention of the hung parliament. I didn't vote Tory, and if there is any agreement between Tory and Lib Dem, it will be short lived and will mean in 12 months when it all goes terribly wrong that Labour will get in again. So maybe that is a good thing.....of course if the Lib Dems go with the Tories - we may be saying a firm goodbye to Nick Clegg, and without a doubt they will go on to dissappear into obscurity - I am fairly certain that most Lib Dems fall on the side of Labour rather than Tory.....
That is my view anyway.
Right I am off to do pregnant things like rest and look at baby things......
Sunday, 21 February 2010
Another Wet Sunday!
We get a lot of those, and I really do enjoy them.
The children have their toys out, and are on the whole playing together, the tv is showing a selection of Tom and Jerry cartoons, and me and the other half are sitting at our laptops.
I think I may have the start of yet another chest infection, I had a week off work a couple of weeks ago with a severe chest infection, and its never really gone away.
Work - now there is a topic! I am at a stage in my job where I have started to dread going in, I sit and look at the clock from the minute I walk in the door, and I escape with a large smile on my face knowing that I don't have to see these people again for 12 hours,
I am contemplating lots of ways out of work, I buy lottery tickets regularly and keep a very close eye on new job options, but nothing has yet come to fruition.
It dawned on me today, that in 7 months I will be applying for my daughters place at school for next year. She will be starting school in approx 18 months, and she isn't even 3 yet, and hasn't started playgroup yet!
I am not ready for my baby to go to playgroup, and I am not ready for her to go to school, I am not ready to be a Mother of two children, I am enjoying being a Mother of 1 child and 1 toddler! I'm not ready to give up my buggy, and the nappies, and I wasn't ready to throw away the bottles and steriliser, the cot and the baby toys. But I guess the time is coming where I am being swept along, rather than choosing the next stage.
When I was a teenager I couldn't wait to be older so I could make my own choices, and yet the choices you make eventually leave you with none, and you are eventually left plodding along doing what is expected, choices being a far distant memory, and you are not really sure you ever had much of a say in the choices you made anyway.
The children have their toys out, and are on the whole playing together, the tv is showing a selection of Tom and Jerry cartoons, and me and the other half are sitting at our laptops.
I think I may have the start of yet another chest infection, I had a week off work a couple of weeks ago with a severe chest infection, and its never really gone away.
Work - now there is a topic! I am at a stage in my job where I have started to dread going in, I sit and look at the clock from the minute I walk in the door, and I escape with a large smile on my face knowing that I don't have to see these people again for 12 hours,
I am contemplating lots of ways out of work, I buy lottery tickets regularly and keep a very close eye on new job options, but nothing has yet come to fruition.
It dawned on me today, that in 7 months I will be applying for my daughters place at school for next year. She will be starting school in approx 18 months, and she isn't even 3 yet, and hasn't started playgroup yet!
I am not ready for my baby to go to playgroup, and I am not ready for her to go to school, I am not ready to be a Mother of two children, I am enjoying being a Mother of 1 child and 1 toddler! I'm not ready to give up my buggy, and the nappies, and I wasn't ready to throw away the bottles and steriliser, the cot and the baby toys. But I guess the time is coming where I am being swept along, rather than choosing the next stage.
When I was a teenager I couldn't wait to be older so I could make my own choices, and yet the choices you make eventually leave you with none, and you are eventually left plodding along doing what is expected, choices being a far distant memory, and you are not really sure you ever had much of a say in the choices you made anyway.
Wednesday, 27 January 2010
Another moment passed followed by another.....and then another,....
Well that is what life is all about isn't it? Moments passing?
Today I am reflecting my little boys 5th birthday. He is at the moment at school, hopefully having a lovely time and looking forward to coming home to his little pile of presents.
I've put a Ben 10 tablecloth on the dinning table and wrapped the presents, there are 'Happy Birthday' banners adorning the doors and walls and balloons in pretty colours everywhere.
Looking back to his first day in our lives he was a tiny little thing, little arms and legs and tiny feet. Although he was born at 8lb 12oz he wasn't teeny, he was still our precious newborn baby.
He had dark hair and beautiful blue eyes full of intellegence - the midwife said 'he's been here before' as she stroked his beautiful face and watched his knowing looks.
As he has grown he has excelled in everything, he grew brilliantly and is a tall boy now, perfect to look at and still with those beautiful dark brooding eyes so full of knowledge. He has his moments, he is a little pest at times, and has always from the moment he was born cried more than he really needs to.
He learned to speak early, smile, laugh, and now he is learning to read and learning music, always keen to learn new skills.
That tiny baby who laid in my arms, cried a lot, put me through hell with his feeding and sleeping issues, is now that beautiful little boy, who cries a lot and puts me through hell with his huge personality and lack of understanding for rules!
He plays with his little sister now with love and care, he is thoughtful and kind beyond his five years, and I get excited at the prospect of a cuddle with that lovely boy, or a chat or a chance to share a nice meal or watch some television. We have giggles and fun, and serious chats, he has input into the weekly menu and understands the importance of a balanced diet.
He is my son and I adore him.
Happy Birthday sweetheart xxx
Today I am reflecting my little boys 5th birthday. He is at the moment at school, hopefully having a lovely time and looking forward to coming home to his little pile of presents.
I've put a Ben 10 tablecloth on the dinning table and wrapped the presents, there are 'Happy Birthday' banners adorning the doors and walls and balloons in pretty colours everywhere.
Looking back to his first day in our lives he was a tiny little thing, little arms and legs and tiny feet. Although he was born at 8lb 12oz he wasn't teeny, he was still our precious newborn baby.
He had dark hair and beautiful blue eyes full of intellegence - the midwife said 'he's been here before' as she stroked his beautiful face and watched his knowing looks.
As he has grown he has excelled in everything, he grew brilliantly and is a tall boy now, perfect to look at and still with those beautiful dark brooding eyes so full of knowledge. He has his moments, he is a little pest at times, and has always from the moment he was born cried more than he really needs to.
He learned to speak early, smile, laugh, and now he is learning to read and learning music, always keen to learn new skills.
That tiny baby who laid in my arms, cried a lot, put me through hell with his feeding and sleeping issues, is now that beautiful little boy, who cries a lot and puts me through hell with his huge personality and lack of understanding for rules!
He plays with his little sister now with love and care, he is thoughtful and kind beyond his five years, and I get excited at the prospect of a cuddle with that lovely boy, or a chat or a chance to share a nice meal or watch some television. We have giggles and fun, and serious chats, he has input into the weekly menu and understands the importance of a balanced diet.
He is my son and I adore him.
Happy Birthday sweetheart xxx
Saturday, 9 January 2010
Someone help us?!
It should be 'God help us' but as I have zero believe or less in a higher power existing I had to think of something else....
I am going to have a little rant now, close your eyes and navigate away from the page if this is likely to annoy you!
Snow - it falls from the ground, as far as I am aware the government don't have a great deal to do with the actual ordering of the snow, or the stopping of the snow.
They also have no idea how much snow the country will get from year to year - and so they cannot possibly be prepared with snow plows and grit for the amount of snow we have had this year.
YET - all I hear is how the government/local council are negligent in their efforts to combat the snow fall - even the roads that have been gritted are getting covered as soon as we get the next lot of snow fall - its what some might call a loosing battle.
So sick of hearing moaning about school closures, the country grinding to a standstill - is it really that bad? Honestly?
The problem is not the country being un-prepared, its the people, the people who cannot understand that things will have to be a bit different - you cannot go on 'as normal' when the country is covered in snow!
Is it really so bad that you can't get out driving? You can't go out boozing it? You might have to stay at home and spend some time with your family?!?!?
Really?
Its been a pain from my point of view only because I have had to take holiday from work - other than that, its been a good opportunity to spend time with my children - and as we live at the bottom of a big hill no one can visit us!!!!!!!
I am going to have a little rant now, close your eyes and navigate away from the page if this is likely to annoy you!
Snow - it falls from the ground, as far as I am aware the government don't have a great deal to do with the actual ordering of the snow, or the stopping of the snow.
They also have no idea how much snow the country will get from year to year - and so they cannot possibly be prepared with snow plows and grit for the amount of snow we have had this year.
YET - all I hear is how the government/local council are negligent in their efforts to combat the snow fall - even the roads that have been gritted are getting covered as soon as we get the next lot of snow fall - its what some might call a loosing battle.
So sick of hearing moaning about school closures, the country grinding to a standstill - is it really that bad? Honestly?
The problem is not the country being un-prepared, its the people, the people who cannot understand that things will have to be a bit different - you cannot go on 'as normal' when the country is covered in snow!
Is it really so bad that you can't get out driving? You can't go out boozing it? You might have to stay at home and spend some time with your family?!?!?
Really?
Its been a pain from my point of view only because I have had to take holiday from work - other than that, its been a good opportunity to spend time with my children - and as we live at the bottom of a big hill no one can visit us!!!!!!!
Friday, 8 January 2010
Sneefal
Probably spelt wrong, but there you go!
Well we are covered in about a foot of snow now! So much snow fell last night to cover what we had already - I can't see us ever getting out again!!!
The school is closed, I have used 3 days holiday so far - they have run out of grit - journeys are taking 4 times as long as they should - kids are going a bit stir crazy!!
I am enjoying the extra time off with the children, there have been arguements and misunderstandings, fights and cross words, but there have also been snuggles, songs, movies and cosy dinners. There is more good than not so good.
Standing at the back door last night with it open and watching the huge clumps of snow fall in the garden, I am always amazed at the pure silence that comes with the snow. How wonderful it must be to live in a country better equiped to deal with this kind of weather. Its unfair to be cross with the UK for not being prepared - I don't want the council spending my tax money on extra grit and snow plows for this kind of snow every 30 years! I say sit back and enjoy! Use a couple of days holiday if you can, and just have a few days where you don't see anyone else, you just rely on your own company and those of the ones you love.
Well we are covered in about a foot of snow now! So much snow fell last night to cover what we had already - I can't see us ever getting out again!!!
The school is closed, I have used 3 days holiday so far - they have run out of grit - journeys are taking 4 times as long as they should - kids are going a bit stir crazy!!
I am enjoying the extra time off with the children, there have been arguements and misunderstandings, fights and cross words, but there have also been snuggles, songs, movies and cosy dinners. There is more good than not so good.
Standing at the back door last night with it open and watching the huge clumps of snow fall in the garden, I am always amazed at the pure silence that comes with the snow. How wonderful it must be to live in a country better equiped to deal with this kind of weather. Its unfair to be cross with the UK for not being prepared - I don't want the council spending my tax money on extra grit and snow plows for this kind of snow every 30 years! I say sit back and enjoy! Use a couple of days holiday if you can, and just have a few days where you don't see anyone else, you just rely on your own company and those of the ones you love.
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