We get a lot of those, and I really do enjoy them.
The children have their toys out, and are on the whole playing together, the tv is showing a selection of Tom and Jerry cartoons, and me and the other half are sitting at our laptops.
I think I may have the start of yet another chest infection, I had a week off work a couple of weeks ago with a severe chest infection, and its never really gone away.
Work - now there is a topic! I am at a stage in my job where I have started to dread going in, I sit and look at the clock from the minute I walk in the door, and I escape with a large smile on my face knowing that I don't have to see these people again for 12 hours,
I am contemplating lots of ways out of work, I buy lottery tickets regularly and keep a very close eye on new job options, but nothing has yet come to fruition.
It dawned on me today, that in 7 months I will be applying for my daughters place at school for next year. She will be starting school in approx 18 months, and she isn't even 3 yet, and hasn't started playgroup yet!
I am not ready for my baby to go to playgroup, and I am not ready for her to go to school, I am not ready to be a Mother of two children, I am enjoying being a Mother of 1 child and 1 toddler! I'm not ready to give up my buggy, and the nappies, and I wasn't ready to throw away the bottles and steriliser, the cot and the baby toys. But I guess the time is coming where I am being swept along, rather than choosing the next stage.
When I was a teenager I couldn't wait to be older so I could make my own choices, and yet the choices you make eventually leave you with none, and you are eventually left plodding along doing what is expected, choices being a far distant memory, and you are not really sure you ever had much of a say in the choices you made anyway.
Sunday, 21 February 2010
Wednesday, 27 January 2010
Another moment passed followed by another.....and then another,....
Well that is what life is all about isn't it? Moments passing?
Today I am reflecting my little boys 5th birthday. He is at the moment at school, hopefully having a lovely time and looking forward to coming home to his little pile of presents.
I've put a Ben 10 tablecloth on the dinning table and wrapped the presents, there are 'Happy Birthday' banners adorning the doors and walls and balloons in pretty colours everywhere.
Looking back to his first day in our lives he was a tiny little thing, little arms and legs and tiny feet. Although he was born at 8lb 12oz he wasn't teeny, he was still our precious newborn baby.
He had dark hair and beautiful blue eyes full of intellegence - the midwife said 'he's been here before' as she stroked his beautiful face and watched his knowing looks.
As he has grown he has excelled in everything, he grew brilliantly and is a tall boy now, perfect to look at and still with those beautiful dark brooding eyes so full of knowledge. He has his moments, he is a little pest at times, and has always from the moment he was born cried more than he really needs to.
He learned to speak early, smile, laugh, and now he is learning to read and learning music, always keen to learn new skills.
That tiny baby who laid in my arms, cried a lot, put me through hell with his feeding and sleeping issues, is now that beautiful little boy, who cries a lot and puts me through hell with his huge personality and lack of understanding for rules!
He plays with his little sister now with love and care, he is thoughtful and kind beyond his five years, and I get excited at the prospect of a cuddle with that lovely boy, or a chat or a chance to share a nice meal or watch some television. We have giggles and fun, and serious chats, he has input into the weekly menu and understands the importance of a balanced diet.
He is my son and I adore him.
Happy Birthday sweetheart xxx
Today I am reflecting my little boys 5th birthday. He is at the moment at school, hopefully having a lovely time and looking forward to coming home to his little pile of presents.
I've put a Ben 10 tablecloth on the dinning table and wrapped the presents, there are 'Happy Birthday' banners adorning the doors and walls and balloons in pretty colours everywhere.
Looking back to his first day in our lives he was a tiny little thing, little arms and legs and tiny feet. Although he was born at 8lb 12oz he wasn't teeny, he was still our precious newborn baby.
He had dark hair and beautiful blue eyes full of intellegence - the midwife said 'he's been here before' as she stroked his beautiful face and watched his knowing looks.
As he has grown he has excelled in everything, he grew brilliantly and is a tall boy now, perfect to look at and still with those beautiful dark brooding eyes so full of knowledge. He has his moments, he is a little pest at times, and has always from the moment he was born cried more than he really needs to.
He learned to speak early, smile, laugh, and now he is learning to read and learning music, always keen to learn new skills.
That tiny baby who laid in my arms, cried a lot, put me through hell with his feeding and sleeping issues, is now that beautiful little boy, who cries a lot and puts me through hell with his huge personality and lack of understanding for rules!
He plays with his little sister now with love and care, he is thoughtful and kind beyond his five years, and I get excited at the prospect of a cuddle with that lovely boy, or a chat or a chance to share a nice meal or watch some television. We have giggles and fun, and serious chats, he has input into the weekly menu and understands the importance of a balanced diet.
He is my son and I adore him.
Happy Birthday sweetheart xxx
Saturday, 9 January 2010
Someone help us?!
It should be 'God help us' but as I have zero believe or less in a higher power existing I had to think of something else....
I am going to have a little rant now, close your eyes and navigate away from the page if this is likely to annoy you!
Snow - it falls from the ground, as far as I am aware the government don't have a great deal to do with the actual ordering of the snow, or the stopping of the snow.
They also have no idea how much snow the country will get from year to year - and so they cannot possibly be prepared with snow plows and grit for the amount of snow we have had this year.
YET - all I hear is how the government/local council are negligent in their efforts to combat the snow fall - even the roads that have been gritted are getting covered as soon as we get the next lot of snow fall - its what some might call a loosing battle.
So sick of hearing moaning about school closures, the country grinding to a standstill - is it really that bad? Honestly?
The problem is not the country being un-prepared, its the people, the people who cannot understand that things will have to be a bit different - you cannot go on 'as normal' when the country is covered in snow!
Is it really so bad that you can't get out driving? You can't go out boozing it? You might have to stay at home and spend some time with your family?!?!?
Really?
Its been a pain from my point of view only because I have had to take holiday from work - other than that, its been a good opportunity to spend time with my children - and as we live at the bottom of a big hill no one can visit us!!!!!!!
I am going to have a little rant now, close your eyes and navigate away from the page if this is likely to annoy you!
Snow - it falls from the ground, as far as I am aware the government don't have a great deal to do with the actual ordering of the snow, or the stopping of the snow.
They also have no idea how much snow the country will get from year to year - and so they cannot possibly be prepared with snow plows and grit for the amount of snow we have had this year.
YET - all I hear is how the government/local council are negligent in their efforts to combat the snow fall - even the roads that have been gritted are getting covered as soon as we get the next lot of snow fall - its what some might call a loosing battle.
So sick of hearing moaning about school closures, the country grinding to a standstill - is it really that bad? Honestly?
The problem is not the country being un-prepared, its the people, the people who cannot understand that things will have to be a bit different - you cannot go on 'as normal' when the country is covered in snow!
Is it really so bad that you can't get out driving? You can't go out boozing it? You might have to stay at home and spend some time with your family?!?!?
Really?
Its been a pain from my point of view only because I have had to take holiday from work - other than that, its been a good opportunity to spend time with my children - and as we live at the bottom of a big hill no one can visit us!!!!!!!
Friday, 8 January 2010
Sneefal
Probably spelt wrong, but there you go!
Well we are covered in about a foot of snow now! So much snow fell last night to cover what we had already - I can't see us ever getting out again!!!
The school is closed, I have used 3 days holiday so far - they have run out of grit - journeys are taking 4 times as long as they should - kids are going a bit stir crazy!!
I am enjoying the extra time off with the children, there have been arguements and misunderstandings, fights and cross words, but there have also been snuggles, songs, movies and cosy dinners. There is more good than not so good.
Standing at the back door last night with it open and watching the huge clumps of snow fall in the garden, I am always amazed at the pure silence that comes with the snow. How wonderful it must be to live in a country better equiped to deal with this kind of weather. Its unfair to be cross with the UK for not being prepared - I don't want the council spending my tax money on extra grit and snow plows for this kind of snow every 30 years! I say sit back and enjoy! Use a couple of days holiday if you can, and just have a few days where you don't see anyone else, you just rely on your own company and those of the ones you love.
Well we are covered in about a foot of snow now! So much snow fell last night to cover what we had already - I can't see us ever getting out again!!!
The school is closed, I have used 3 days holiday so far - they have run out of grit - journeys are taking 4 times as long as they should - kids are going a bit stir crazy!!
I am enjoying the extra time off with the children, there have been arguements and misunderstandings, fights and cross words, but there have also been snuggles, songs, movies and cosy dinners. There is more good than not so good.
Standing at the back door last night with it open and watching the huge clumps of snow fall in the garden, I am always amazed at the pure silence that comes with the snow. How wonderful it must be to live in a country better equiped to deal with this kind of weather. Its unfair to be cross with the UK for not being prepared - I don't want the council spending my tax money on extra grit and snow plows for this kind of snow every 30 years! I say sit back and enjoy! Use a couple of days holiday if you can, and just have a few days where you don't see anyone else, you just rely on your own company and those of the ones you love.
Tuesday, 29 December 2009
Christmas
Well its that time of year again - the week between Christmas and New Year. The excitment has been appeased by the giving and receiving of gifts. The children are playing with their new toys, we have even homed most of them. The bin people are arriving sometime tomorrow to take away the small mountain of recycling which is sitting in a rather attractive and festive heap out the front of the house. Food has been eaten, crackers pulled, we have just got to 'see in' the new year and we will be back on the normal loop.
My sons birthday, a load of other birthdays, my daughters birthday, my birthday, my husbands birthday, a load more birthdays and then Christmas and New Year again!
All there is to look forward to is retirement, when there will probably be an enormous void because my family will have all moved on, no more relentless working - gah what is the point?!?!
We had a pretty good Christmas really, the day went well, we had a nice Christmas dinner, the children really seemed happy with what they got, there were no dreadful disasters and everything was nice. Well worth the effort and planning that went in to it. Boxing day - we wont go there, not here, not now, lets just say we wont be repeating that experience.
We had a party on the Sunday, was supposed to be a joint party for my family and the other halfs family, but I have recently discovered that I come from quite a small family, and they are often busy, so I was represented only by myself and my lovely parents.
Anyhoo, Christmas has long been my favourite time of year, but with it comes so many conditions, you want it to all be perfect, you want everyone to have a good time, and its so hard to get a set of circumstances where everyone is going to be happy.
But we achieved it on the whole this year, and we even have some minor plans for New Years Eve this year!
Right I am going to snuggly under a blanket with my little boy and watch the rest of some old film on the tv - more great traditions for Christmas week :o)
My sons birthday, a load of other birthdays, my daughters birthday, my birthday, my husbands birthday, a load more birthdays and then Christmas and New Year again!
All there is to look forward to is retirement, when there will probably be an enormous void because my family will have all moved on, no more relentless working - gah what is the point?!?!
We had a pretty good Christmas really, the day went well, we had a nice Christmas dinner, the children really seemed happy with what they got, there were no dreadful disasters and everything was nice. Well worth the effort and planning that went in to it. Boxing day - we wont go there, not here, not now, lets just say we wont be repeating that experience.
We had a party on the Sunday, was supposed to be a joint party for my family and the other halfs family, but I have recently discovered that I come from quite a small family, and they are often busy, so I was represented only by myself and my lovely parents.
Anyhoo, Christmas has long been my favourite time of year, but with it comes so many conditions, you want it to all be perfect, you want everyone to have a good time, and its so hard to get a set of circumstances where everyone is going to be happy.
But we achieved it on the whole this year, and we even have some minor plans for New Years Eve this year!
Right I am going to snuggly under a blanket with my little boy and watch the rest of some old film on the tv - more great traditions for Christmas week :o)
Sunday, 15 November 2009
Sunday Morning
Well its earlyish on a Sunday morning, the rain is relentless and my daughter was up and at 'em at just before 6, so consequently so was I.
I was up late listening to old music with my lovely other half last night, so I am running on 5 hours sleep - a veritable banquet compared to some of the early weeks when my little boy was first with us. I would consider myself well rested on three hours back then!
My lovely husband has offered me a release in that I can return to my pit for a couple of hours, but I would miss out on the wonder of a wet Sunday morning, snuggled up on the sofa in my pjs and blanket, fire on, and curtains shut, watching childrens tv and tapping out a contented blog!
I am getting ready and looking forward to a night away without the children next weekend, a posh hotel and a show, but I shall miss this snuggley malarky - I've come to rather enjoy the early rising of a Sunday morning - much better than the waste of the day getting up at 11 that I used to indulge in pre-Mummy days!
We are both imagining laying in till late next weekend - but I foresee waking at 7am and wanting to get up and get going!!! The other half seems to think we wont have time for shopping - we are in London for approx 20 hours, probably sleeping about 8 hours (oooh luxury!) eating for maybe 1 hour, laughing at the show for approx 2 hours, and travel time probably 2 hours.....to me that leaves 7 hours for shopping - forgive me if I have missed anything!! lol
Right I am off now to enjoy the delights that Sunday have to offer me this week.
I was up late listening to old music with my lovely other half last night, so I am running on 5 hours sleep - a veritable banquet compared to some of the early weeks when my little boy was first with us. I would consider myself well rested on three hours back then!
My lovely husband has offered me a release in that I can return to my pit for a couple of hours, but I would miss out on the wonder of a wet Sunday morning, snuggled up on the sofa in my pjs and blanket, fire on, and curtains shut, watching childrens tv and tapping out a contented blog!
I am getting ready and looking forward to a night away without the children next weekend, a posh hotel and a show, but I shall miss this snuggley malarky - I've come to rather enjoy the early rising of a Sunday morning - much better than the waste of the day getting up at 11 that I used to indulge in pre-Mummy days!
We are both imagining laying in till late next weekend - but I foresee waking at 7am and wanting to get up and get going!!! The other half seems to think we wont have time for shopping - we are in London for approx 20 hours, probably sleeping about 8 hours (oooh luxury!) eating for maybe 1 hour, laughing at the show for approx 2 hours, and travel time probably 2 hours.....to me that leaves 7 hours for shopping - forgive me if I have missed anything!! lol
Right I am off now to enjoy the delights that Sunday have to offer me this week.
Saturday, 24 October 2009
Nobody knows I am here!
It is I think a fact that absolutely no-one has any idea I am here - a faceless blogger in the dark, I have searched for this blog - knowing as I do that it is here, and I cannot find it - so I challenge anyone to find it to comment below!!!
I am sitting here chatting to myself on my faceless blog, I could say anything, reveal family secrets, tell everyone my own darkest secrets - fairly certain that no-one would ever find it.
Part of this fills me with a certain degree of sadness - I have written some quite profound things - I think so anyway - I can put a sentence together....kind of, and some of it even makes sense and sometimes I make a point, usually by accident but there it is anyway!
I am feeling pretty displaced again, I often come here when I get 'that' feeling, somewhere I can have a moan and not have to worry to much that anyone is going to get offended!
I don't really see the point to me keeping this blog as I have managed to hide it so well - but here it still is, and here I am still tapping out meaningless words to no-one in particular!
Anyway, back to feeling displaced, I don't even know if that is the right word - correct me if you dare! But I just feel kind of 'out of the loop' I am not even sure there is a loop to be in, but I feel that I have finally pushed everyone so far away that I am no longer part of things.
I don't push everyone away - don't get me wrong - I am not an emotionally devoid shell sitting in a cold room with just a grey blanket and hard bed for company, and the occasional blog spurts out!!
I keep feeling inspired to do things, and then don't have the time or the energy to bother with it all.
I am sitting here chatting to myself on my faceless blog, I could say anything, reveal family secrets, tell everyone my own darkest secrets - fairly certain that no-one would ever find it.
Part of this fills me with a certain degree of sadness - I have written some quite profound things - I think so anyway - I can put a sentence together....kind of, and some of it even makes sense and sometimes I make a point, usually by accident but there it is anyway!
I am feeling pretty displaced again, I often come here when I get 'that' feeling, somewhere I can have a moan and not have to worry to much that anyone is going to get offended!
I don't really see the point to me keeping this blog as I have managed to hide it so well - but here it still is, and here I am still tapping out meaningless words to no-one in particular!
Anyway, back to feeling displaced, I don't even know if that is the right word - correct me if you dare! But I just feel kind of 'out of the loop' I am not even sure there is a loop to be in, but I feel that I have finally pushed everyone so far away that I am no longer part of things.
I don't push everyone away - don't get me wrong - I am not an emotionally devoid shell sitting in a cold room with just a grey blanket and hard bed for company, and the occasional blog spurts out!!
I keep feeling inspired to do things, and then don't have the time or the energy to bother with it all.
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